It's always crazy how a weekend can have extreme ups and downs. We started our weekend with children up at 6am. What happened to them sleeping in until 7? It's madness. Josh went into his room to get some books off his shelf to read to Joseph and the books fell knocking his piggy bank off and it shattered. Our day began with tears and broken porcelain all over his room.
Things were going great, I spent some good time working on more primary stuff to once again run into more computer problems. (I keep reminding myself, this will all pass soon).
Unfortunately our Saturday afternoon took a turn for the worst and to make it even worse, there were other people in the house to experience the madness. Josh has been going through an interesting change (I don't know what to call it) he has extreme ups and downs and can become extremely angry, sad and vocal. Luckily we aren't the only ones going through this, other good friends of ours that have boys the same age say they are going through the same things. Well this particular afternoon (i'm sure he had been playing wii games too long) he snapped. This time he was uncontrollable, shouting at me in front of his friend. It escalated quickly in which I had to escort him upstairs to his room, which was also not pleasing as he was fighting and kicking me. There ended up being a lot of shouting and door slamming.
As a parent I don't think this ever gets easier and it always leaves such a sad hurtful feeling in our house. Only a handful of other times has it ever gotten this out of control. We all felt bad for things said but are trying to learn from it. It was a quiet night, Aaron headed off to the temple to go through with one of his Young Men we discussed what happened and how we could better control the situation next time. Not how I thought my day would end.
Sunday came quickly enough when Joseph decided that he was getting up at 4:40 in the morning. Aaron was already up watching Murray play in the tennis match. I tried and tried to get him to go back to sleep but he was refusing, so he hung out with Aaron and wandered the house. Between 5 and 6 both Josh and Rachael also woke up, it was a long morning of shuffling kids back to bed. Not an energizing way to start a day.
We all got up and started our day with bright and happy attitudes though. We made it to the first hour of church long enough to teach lessons and work through primary. Then headed off to my cousins farewell.
Jenna's farewell was so perfect! The spirit was so strong and I could feel her strong testimony through her words. She will be such an incredible missionary serving in Louisiana Baton Rouge.
She has a twin sister Sarah that Aaron is still struggling to tell apart. I accidentally mixed them up while at their house and then told Aaron that Jenna was Sarah. He had to take this picture to remember our embarrassing mix ups.
We are so proud of you Sarah!
Because of the 'early' risers we had some wild and tired kids so we didn't stay too long. After arriving home we relaxed by playing games, watching a movie and having a simple dinner together. It was such a huge difference from the day before. Josh was so much happier. I hate to see him or anyone else sad in our family.
Some other highlights from the last couple of days:
Wrestling... They love to line up just like this before crawling towards Aaron to wrestle and climb all over him
I normally NEVER take pictures of my kids on the potty but our 19 month old peed for the first time in his potty. For awhile now he has made it a habit to sit on his potty before getting into the bath. This time he went and everyone happened to be there so we all celebrated, danced and sang for him. He was a little proud of him self :)
Josh and Rachael insisted on getting a picture of him, they were so proud of their little brother.
Quick snapshots as Aaron has just walked in the door from work, these two always run to him in excitement that "daddy is home"
This last picture is to summarize my happiness. I truly am happy, my soul is full and I am so very grateful for everything in my life. It's never easy but so so worth the hard fight and perseverance to do what is right.
I am grateful for loved ones around us that increase our happiness. Family, friends, neighbors, co workers. So many people around us help touch our family's lives in ways they will never understand.
Times are rough, really rough but I KNOW that I will get through it and that I am not alone.
I wouldn't change our circumstances for anything.
Aaron came home last week with some unexpected flowers. They happened to be my favorite lilies.
Stargazer lilies give off a very strong scent. This scent is my favorite smell in the whole world. I love the smell of newborns but this smell tops it. I can't explain it but every time I get a whiff I have to stop and inhale again. Sounds silly but it's a simple reminder to me stop for a moment and 'consider the lilies of the field, and how they grow' I never would have thought that a simple smell would give me such a sense of peace that things will pass and there is light and love around me.
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