Dentist

I was so excited after a dentist appointment that I decided to run home.

Ok not exactly but I did run which is not an enjoyable thing for me.  I hadn't been to the dentist for a year and a half. Oops. I had taken the kids but was struggling to coordinate a time to go so I was nervous of the outcome.

To my surprise I did great, no cavities or work to be done! Yippee..
So I ran down Wells Road because Aaron was picking the kids up from school and I was meeting him at the entrance to our neighborhood. Its a good 17 minute walk so I ran it to cut the time in half since he was already waiting. I think I ran faster just because I was relieved.

These trees are so exquisite how they bend over the foot path. I stopped to catch my breath and gaze at it's beauty with the sun peering through.

Becca was as happy as I about clean happy teeth and obliged to take some silly photos with me. 

Love

"Love is the only force that can erase the differences between people or abridge the chasms of bitterness" 

"Love is the very essence of life. Love is the security for which children weep, the yearning of youth, the adhesive that binds marriage, and the lubricant that defeats devastating friction in the home. It is the peace of old age, the sunlight of hope shining through death. How rich are those who enjoy it in their associations with family friends and neighbors."

"Love like faith is a gift of God. It is also the most enduring and most powerful virtue. "

-Gordon B. Hinckley-

I started reading "Stand for Something" by Gordon B. Hinckley and haven't been able to get past the first 30 minutes as I keep going back to re listen to it. Already I have SO much to learn from this book.

The first virtue he speaks about is Love.  I have realized this is the answer to a lot of my problems in our home.  "Love is the security for which children weep".  We all long to feel loved and care for right?  My single most important job is to give that very thing to these 4 growing children.

Sometimes love seems like the furthest thing from my reach as with 4 kids the house is constantly full of noise.  For a pessimistic person it feels like 90 percent of the time it's full of screams, shouts and yelling. For an optimist person its feels full of laughter, smiles, giggles and words of love.
I hate to think of myself as a pessimistic person but I often feel that 90 percent is what fills our home. It drives me to my breaking points sometimes but until I can remind myself about LOVE I cannot reverse my feelings and actions.

Today we went to a beautiful baptism for 4 young girls between the ages of 8 and 15.  We were on time dressed in our best and with food in hand.  We sit down and the fighting begins all because all four of them want to sit next to me. I am not joking when I say that this happens ALL the time.
My heart stretches and tears as I can't physically let them all sit right next to me so who do I let down? Well doesn't it always happen that the oldest, most quiet children get put aside as we focus on keeping the younger louder ones quiet?
This happened and I began to feel something I wish I understood and could physically figure out. How do I possibly show all my children the love they deserve? I am one person trying to divide my love between 4 children and a husband. It is so hard but yet I am learning that it is what heals everything!

We then went to the movies and same thing, they are all competing to sit next to me. Im feeling so frustrated but yet shouldn't I be feeling so honored and loved? What is my problem?
It is hard, and I am learning. But one thing that will always help me through is that one very thing, LOVE!!

While driving to the cinemas Josh got me with one of his jokes:

Josh "Mom I bet I can get you to say black"

Mom "oh ok, lets see"

Josh "what color is that sign?"

Mom "white"

Josh "what color are the trees?"

Mom "green"

  This went on for a bit....

Josh "What color is that car?

Mom "red"

Josh "see I told you I could get you to say red"

Mom "No you said you would get me to say black"

Josh "HAHA I just got you to say black"

Mom "oh man, you got me"

I felt loved that he wanted to joke and have a laugh with me. He felt loved because I let him sit in the front seat 'next to me' and he was able to get me laughing.

In preparation to move back to the USA and for my sisters visit in a few weeks we are going through all of our belongings getting rid of stuff and condensing.  Josh decided he wanted to share rooms with Joseph and has been slowly moving his stuff in. He also gave Joseph some of his old toys.
Joseph feels loved because Josh gave him some of his things and wants to be with him. Josh obviously feels loved by Joseph and that's why he wants to share a room.

After the kids were all fast asleep in their beds I did one last check. It was lovely to see Josh setting his stuff up in his new room.

What got me with a swelling heart was when I walked into the girls rooms and saw Rachael curled up in Rebecca's toddler bed with her. Just the sweetest sight as Rachael obviously wanted to be near Rebecca as it made her feel loved and secure. That bed is tiny but she just wanted to be near her.

Rachael is constantly trying to be a mother figure to Rebecca and even had Rebecca calling her Mum for awhile. I had to end that one quick.  Rach longs to be a mother figure like I am to Becca  and she gets so sad when she wants to help and Rebecca won't let her.  I only realize now that it's another sign of wanting to show love and be loved in return.  Isn't it such a wonderful cycle if we can only keep our eyes on that?

I will end my day with this circle of love today in my head hoping for a renewed Sabbath day tomorrow and a greater sense to show love rather than criticism and constantly nagging for things they may be doing wrong. Don't we learn better through love anyway?

Has it really been 18 months?

We dropped the older kids off at school and I told Rebecca of my plan to take some pictures down by the lake. Her response is seen below as we are loading into the car, she sure has attitude. 

It was a beautiful day for a stroll along the boardwalk.

I still cannot believe how grown up she is. 

The picture on the left is her pose of utter irritation with me, "Mom I am NOT happy with you right now".  She had just realized that we were walking on boards and she now feared falling into the cracks. This is what I said to get her to smile in the picture on the right "If you look up and give me one big smile, say cheese, I will hold your hand the rest of the way" 

Quick stop to feed the ducks. Quack Quack!

Joseph was talking non stop, sometimes I struggle to even get a thought in with the amount he rolls off his tongue.  He is adorable though isn't he!?

As much as siblings fight, the love they do show for each other makes it all worth while. Joseph is always hugging Becca and telling her how much he loves her.

Once we arrived home Becca became very playful and more cooperative when being photographed. I can't blame her, she is very comfortable at home.  

I still cannot believe how much Rebecca has grown, she is such a doll and such a diva. Not a day goes by that I don't find my high heels scattered around the house because she is constantly trying on different pairs. She loves combing my hair, painting her nails, playing with baby dolls and barbies.

I can honestly say that I am her favorite person in the world. She goes to no one but me and is completely content as long as I am within arms length whenever we are in public. It is a bit concerning for me at times and often exhausting but I am grateful for her love and the trust she shows in me. 

Learning through example

Monday 2 Feb 2015

Aaron had prepared a special activity for family home evening.
He took each child blindfolded into our lounge where there were an obstacle of pillows along the floor. The objective was to make it to the couch to where the monkey was sitting.  We had to try our best to make it through without touching any pillows. Josh made it past two and the rest of us ended at the first pillow.

The second time Aaron explained that he would guide us through the pillows to the end and if we trusted him and did exactly as he said following his guidance we would make it safely.
Each going one at a time we did just that.
Rebecca sat off at the side watching each of us take our turn. Being blindfolded and guided along she was first a bit unsure. As she watched me make to to the couch and pull off the blindfold in excitement then insisted she have a turn.
It was shocking to watch her go to the starting point, willingly put the blindfold on and completely trust in Aaron has he held her hands leading her through the maze. It was the most adorable thing to watch her. As she reached the end she pulled off the blindfold in excitement just as we had done.
Everyone was so excited for her and cheering her on.

I cannot get past how quickly Rebecca is learning and the trust she shows in us. I know this has a lot to do with the examples of her 3 older siblings..  She is incredibly loving and caring.
Quite often you can hear her jabbering and singing to favorite teddy bears.

Rebecca Sunday Dresses

It has been so fun putting Rebecca in different dresses over the year . I only wish I had all the dresses Rachael wore but they are back in Utah packed away somewhere in our two large storage units.
Here is a fun look back at the past year and a half, I can't believe how much Rebecca has already changed.

7 weeks

On of our first Sundays in Australia.

Rebecca is wearing a newborn dress hand me down from Rachael.

2 Months

This adorable dress with horses on it my mom bought for me before we knew we were moving to Australia. 

 These three pictures were taken between 2 and 3 months old.

All there of these dresses I brought with me, Rachael wore them as a baby.

 3 Months

More hand me downs from Rachael

 4 months

6 Months

My mom sent this outfit back with Aaron when he went back to Utah for Beth and Tanner's wedding.

Our first dresses purchased in Australia. The denim polkadot one worn with white leggings and a blue floral/lace one to match Rachael's.

7 Months

We discovered Costco's dresses. So excited that they sell them here.

10 months

What a cheeky monkey.  This dress was one my mother-in-law 'Mama' bought for Rachael before she was born. It was always one of my favorites with the matching shoes so I made sure to bring it. At 10 months Rebecca finally fit into it.

12 months (1 YEAR)

Fun new dress for her birthday.

14 months

16 months

This gorgeous denim dress is from Mama when they visited us in November.

Isn't Rebecca just adorable in it.

Another Costco dress.

Testing out Nursery on Sunday, decorating cupcakes is always a fun activity.

Dress given by Grandma (my mom). 

Rachael says it's a good 'Christmas' dress because it has red, white and green in it.

17 months

Recent purchase from Target I think...

Might just be my new favorite, it's a tad big but just means she will be wearing it over and over again.

 Rebecca is just growing way too fast but I am glad I have pictures to look back on.

This dress is a fun flowing dress from grandma that Becca loves running around in.

February 2014 Recap

*In an effort to remember our first year in Australia I will recap each month. January has already been done so I will begin with February 2014*

February was a great month filled with a lot of new adventures.

We visited the Melbourne Aquarium in the city.

It was fun to see advertisements downtown for the Super Bowl and still amazes me how expensive parking is.

The picture where the kids are standing on glass above a massive Croc still creeps me out.

The aquarium sits right next to the Yarra River with a lovely view.

Beaches were a frequent occurrence in February as it's one of the hotter months. This beach was Mordialloc Beach right near where Aaron catches the train into the city every day. There is nice shaded park near the beach, a beautiful pier and shops within walking distance.

Rachael had just started school for the first time the beginning of February. She was struggling and cried a bit at first. One day in particular I went to the market after school drop off and Joseph wanted to buy some flowers for Rachael to make her happy. He specifically picked these ones out. It was the sweetest thing that day as he presented them to her after school. She was happy!

Looking back at these pictures is such a bitter sweet feeling, Rebecca was so small.

I loved seeing Josh interact with her, they have a special connection.

One day just before Valentines Day we picked Aaron up from the train station after work and he presented Rach with some beautiful gerber daisies. I think she was feeling extra loved and knew we all supported her starting school.

The picture just below on the right is Joseph watching the washing machine while sitting on the toilet. We began potty training the beginning of 2014, I am so glad that is over and can't believe it has already been a year. He was sitting on his little toilet waiting for his monkey to finish washing. He sat there through the entire cycle.

School pictures and Joseph trying passionfruit for the first time. He really enjoyed it.
Sandra invited us over for dinner one evening, she really does spoil us. It was fun sitting outside together chatting and eating some of the best food.

We played a lot of games. Rachael is our Uno champion and Josh won his first game of Settlers (with some help;). 

I delighted in simple pleasures such as .60 cent watermelon and lunch at the shopping center while Rebecca and Seppe napped in the stroller. That doesn't happen anymore.

Pearls and Lillies from Aaron. I felt extra loved that day.

These two became very close friends and Josh was excited to have her at the same school as him. He does a good job of taking care of her. 

We were invited to an Aussie Engagement Party and a Kiwi (Kiwis are what we call the New Zealanders) birthday celebration. The Kiwi's cook their food in the ground, it's spectacular. Both were new and fun experiences.

Josh and Rach rode their bikes to school a couple times while I ran pushing Becca and Seppe in the stroller. It is much easier riding to school since Rachael is on two wheels and I have my own bike and trailer.

Super Bowl Sunday  (Monday for us), Aaron took work off and we watched the game at home. For lunch (at half time) we walked down to the end of our street to dine at The Nest Cafe over looking the lake. After lunch we resumed the game and Joseph went missing, we found him asleep under Rachael's bed.

We had a great time taking a day trip down to Queenscliff and celebrating Valentines Day in the city.
I also had a fun little photo shoot with Rebecca at 5 months old.